I forgot. I forgot how crazy I get when I let go. How I lose control when I lose my temper. I hate when my friends have to witness when I’m like this and it sucks like hell when I do it to a friend. When I snap its like nothing can bring me back, you’ve just got to let me be or it’ll never end pretty.
Today I totally blew up and literally fucked up one of my ‘friends’ in front of other friends & people who never saw this side of me. Seeing their face as they looked in disbelief sucked, but that temperamental feat, that’s a part of me that I’ve tried to hide cause I know I have no control over it.
I’m not gonna lie, I’ve been wanting to kick his ass for awhile now, but I’m not gonna lie, I don’t regret it.
It hella sucks when you think you’re putting yourself out there only to realize that someone else still has you. Move on already, so I can move on too.